I am assuaging my guilt by focusing on James' accomplishment. He basically entertained himself all day today (or watched WAY TOO MUCH "shows" aka. PBS). I had a tons of desk tasks to get done, emails to send, bills to pay, calls to make, appointments to make, and then I also had to clean the entire house as my house cleaner didn't show up yesterday and we had to have a clean house this evening for someone coming over.
So James would come up to me with a box of multi-grain cheerios he had pulled out of the pantry and ask for some, or he'd push his empty water sippey cup into my hand and ask for more...or he would ask me to come to his room so he could triumphantly point to the train track that he put together by himself for the very first time. He was so pleased with himself.
Then this evening he got the reward he was seeking for his patience all day. He got to stay up later than his normal bedtime just being snuggled, tickled and adored by me. The house is clean, the people came and left and I could finally focus on my baby bean- his soft, squishy skin, his shining brown eyes twinkling with delight, and his small hands turning my face to his to say hi.
This getting to be a momma is such a blessing and joy.
This was the first time we used it (oh I am missing those rolls!)
Of course, he had to give it a taste.
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